The not very well kept secret

This may actually not be a surprise to the few people who read my blog but .....

Yes, we are pregnant. Yea!! We are very excited and can not wait to see what this pregnancy holds in store for us. My doctor appointment for yesterday was canceled so I haven't even see my doctor yet. Which will be cutting things a little short for my taste. Dr. E told me I would have a cerclage(sp?) when I was 12 weeks along well by the time I get to see her I will be 9 weeks. But I am trusting God and looking at this pregnancy through the eyes of faith focusing on God and not the circumstances. Please be in prayer for this little one that I can carry this pregnancy full term.

Potty Training and I may have promised too much

For the past couple of months Noah has been using the toilet in the morning and at night. We had not switched him out of his diapers just yet. I think I wasn't ready to let that part of my baby go and with me working I wasn't sure how things would work. So, on Saturday of my spring break we put him in big boy underwear after he used the toilet first thing that morning. We were going to be home all day so we thought it would be the right time. He did great; I on the other hand could not quit calling his underwear panties. Whoops.
Here is Noah showing off his Hulk underwear. He is very proud =)

Funny Stories

Then on Sunday we went to a party at the park. I had never been to this park and I wasn't sure about bathrooms so we put him in a pull up. We got to the party at 1:30 and we got home at 4:30. When we got home he was grabbing himself and seemed real upset so we thought he had gone in his pull up. Nope, he had held it and was about to burst. I was so proud of him and a little shocked.

So, last night after he had been in bed for 30 to 45 mins. when we head this loud cry from him. It sounded like his something is really wrong cry. B and I go running into his room and he was upset that he had peed in his night time diaper. It was too funny. We had to tell him over and over it is okay.

Here is where I may have promised something I wish I could take back. See, he has done amazing with peeing. It has been easier than I ever thought it would be but he had not gone poo. He went on Saturday in his underwear but I am not sure what happened at that point b/c he did not go again until tonight. Yes, this is Noah who goes at least twice a day went 3 days without going. He would tell me he needed to go but he would not do it and he would not sit long enough to do it. So, in order to get him to poo I may have promised I would buy him a skateboard. Noah has taken a huge liking to skateboards and some of the kids on our block have a skateboard and he has been on it (he is actually pretty good). I was feeling the pressure to get this potty training thing down before I had to go back to work. Tonight he stayed the night with my mom and she put him on the toilet and gave him a book to read. It relaxed him enough so he would finally go poo. They called me right away and Noah reminded me that he gets a skateboard. Whoops!!

Here are pics of Noah practicing his skateboard

Giving All Glory and Honor to God

YES!!!!!!!!!
I just sent in the last and final payment to our biggest school loan. I want to record this moment in time b/c I want to be able to look back and see what God has done. We (actually this loan was just from when I went to ACU) owed around $54,000 on this one school loan. The monthly payment was $500 and that is a huge chunk out of the budget. When you look at our finances on paper there is no way we should of been able to do this but God is faithful. We have worked hard trusting that God would bless it.

I know it is not proper to talk about money but that is not what I am talking about. I am talking about God. He says trust me and see if I don't throw open the flood gates of heaven and he has! Can I get an AMEN! Praise God we are no longer slave to that lender.

(We do still have another school loan and I can't wait to see God's faithfulness with that one also.=))

WOW! What a week!!

One of these days I hope to be able to write on my blog each day. But until then I will have to write a long blog to catch up on things.

This week began with one of the most difficult things I have had to do in a long time. I went to C's funeral at which I think I cried more than I did at my own son's funeral. Not that I knew C or know K and K very well but I do know that this will be the hardest thing they will ever go through. I know that it doesn't matter what anyone says, how much you know your baby is in heaven, or how many days pass you will always wonder why. But, I do have hope for them. It is the same hope that I have. It is in knowing that it is okay to wonder why, it is in knowing you will enjoy life again, and my treasures truly are stored up in heaven. I can't think about heaven w/o picturing Jesus holding the hand of my little Ethan. I know that it may seem like a long time from now but K and K (b/c they have the same faith I do) will see their life here on earth different and mostly they will see their son with the greatest of all Jesus.

This week also included the TAKS test. Which is an awful day in which we subject children to a stress I don't think they should deal with until later. It is also one of the most tiring days b/c I only had one student to test. As a teacher you are not allowed to do anything but actively monitor the student w/o looking at the test. Seriously, how hard is it to actively monitor one kid but I still can't do anything. So, it makes you so tired to do nothing all day long. Then there was the JBF sale which is overwhelming in itself b/c I try and get a good deal to help out the family financially. I enjoy getting a good deal on clothes for Noah but there is just so much stuff.

Later that night is when I found out that Brad had passed away and my heart just broke for Jenny and her family. We have been praying for Brad and Jenny for a very long time and will continue to lift that family up in prayer. I think Jenny is one of the most amazing women I have ever known. Her faith and strength have been a true testimony for me.

Wednesday we found out that we were going to attend the FWC Fundraising Dinner which I have not been to since I was in school there. It really was an enjoyable evening with good food and looking through old yearbooks. The funniest part of the evening was when they were giving away a Kindle 2. I would love to have a Kindle 2 (it is about the thickness of an ipod touch, the size of a book, and it holds 1500 books) and I was really really hoping I would win it. So, they began to announce the name "Brian and Sh". I so thought I was about to win it but they said Brian and Shirley. Even the people at my table thought I had won. Bummer=(

Saturday I went to the women's conference/retreat. It was really good and one statement stood out more than anything else I heard. She said "You have to decided how you feel about death so that you can live." AMEN TO THAT SISTER!!! That hit home with me b/c I have had to do that. After Ethan died I wanted to get pregnant but I did have to decided how I felt about death. I had to be okay that the next baby (Noah) might not make it so that I could live (by enjoy being pregnant no matter how long it lasted).

When I got home from the retreat I was looking forward to doing my BSF and enjoying my Dr. Pepper. After being home for 15 minutes Noah began throwing up. It lasted on and off until 3:00 am this morning. The saddest thing is now Noah is old enough to talk and tell us how he feels. At some point during the night I heard him say "I don't wanna throw up anymore." So sad =(.

Sorry for being so long winded but this week has been quite emotional and I needed to talk about it. Thanks for listening.

Inside Fun

I don't know about you but I am ready for the spring time weather. About this time every year I get the itch to just be outside. Unfortunately, I am a wimp when it comes to being cold. I hate it =). So, by Sunday after nap I was tired of being inside. We went up to the play scape at church but it was closed for childcare. I agreed to go to the park only after a quick trip to Starbucks but it was even too cold for B. We gave up and headed home. Then B had a great idea. (I saw Jodi doing this but I really did not think our living room would work.)

Yes, we set up the bounce house in the middle of the living room. We had to push our furniture as far as we could b/c our living room is not big at all. Thanks again B for the great idea it was so much fun.